Q(s)otD: "Don't tell me the sky's the limit when there are footprints on the moon." -Unknown

"Oops, you dropped your tampon." -Shaina Coogan

Today was perfect. If I could've added some family time, I think I would've been set.

8:45 am: Get up and out of bed. WHY AM I AWAKE?!
11:00 am: Beach with Juniper and Sam.
11:49 am: See Emily and Melanie at Dania Beach! Surprise :)
11:50 am-2:15 pm: Play in the sand, build sand piles, talk, and tan.
2:45 pm: Go to SNOBALLS. Yummy in my tummy.
4:00 pm: Shower and go to the mall with Juniper.
7:00 pm: Dinner at Chili's with Cara.
8:30 pm: Visit Jordan, Abby, and Robyn. Wander around. Run into Shana and Amy. Shana's working at the J this summer!
10:00 pm: Beach with Shaina. Amazing. Breathtaking. Beautiful. Talking. Discussing. Explaining. Reminiscing. True friendship defined.
12:00 am: Steak n Shake, currently renamed Shake, for some shakes (milk and booty) and fries.
2:00 am: LJ and SLEEP.

What a perfect day. This break gets better by the day.

<3

Current Mood: happy

QotD: "He who hesitates is lost."

Crappy day. Tomorrow will be better. (TRAUMATIZED BY A GIRL AND A HAMSTER separately...will explain at at later time)

I'm gonna fight for it. No matter what it takes. I will do it.

Current Mood: worried

QotD: "You can't help but smile when you see a penguin...plus, they got that whole tuxedo engrained into their flesh thing going on." -Good Luck Chuck

Lately I've been feeling extremely unemotionally available. My friends and I are going our separate ways, Pol's in Belgium, and the best summer of my life is over.

I can't even begin to sum up this summer, because there's just way too much to say. All I know is that there are 299 days until camp starts again, and I can't wait.

Tomorrow's my last day in the Coop, and I'm not sure how I feel about it. There are so many memories and friendships made here that I'll never forget. It's going to be a bitter sweet goodbye, and a grand hello to my new life at UF.

QotD: "Take all of your wasted honor.
Every little past frustration.
Take all of your so called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations.

Say what you need to say (x8)

Walkin' like a one man army,
Fightin' with the shadows in your head.
Livin' up the same old moment
Knowin' you'd be better off instead

If you could only...
Say what you need to say (x8)

Have no fear for givin' in.
Have no fear for giving over.
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say again.

EVEN IF YOUR HANDS ARE SHAKING,
AND YOUR FAITH IS BROKEN.
Even as the eyes are closin',
Do it with a HEART WIDE OPEN.

SAY WHAT YOU NEED TO SAY (x7)

Say what you need to, Say what you need to...

Say what you need to say." -John Mayer

<3

This week's been amazing. I love my campers, my co-counselors, and my new friends. Life is good. Thank you summer.

Current Mood: cheerful

Word of the Day: BALLS (Thanks to bored counselors and tennis)

Oh, camp, how I love thee :]

It's good to be back.

Current Mood: exhausted

QotD: "What is love? Oh baby, don't hurt me. Don't hurt me. No more." -Haddaway

I need you here with me. Right now. Always. Forever.

I want to tell you so much, but I can't. You let yourself out the other night, and I sat there and watched you hurt. I watched your beauty, your love, your everything. I want to tell you so much, but I don't want to hurt. I don't want to hurt anymore.

I just want you.

Current Mood: crappy

QotD: "Life's what you make it, so let's make it rock." -Hannah Montana (dedicated to J. Freezy)

And so it begins. The rest of my life.

Yesterday I received my diploma, which makes me an official high school graduate. How do I feel? Amazing. Accomplished. Proud. Happy.

Graduation was in a sense, just how I imagined. Long at times ("We're only on the B's?"), I was surrounded by my classmates, friends, and family. The people next to me, Kelise Whiteman and Lee Weisberg, I hardly knew, but that didn't matter because we were together. As lame as that sounds, I truly believe that for that day, June 3rd, the class of 2008 was not just 552 random kids in different cliques, we were one group with the unbreakable bond and experience of walking across the stage and receiving our diploma holders (without the diplomas inside).

As I proudly walked across the stage, stopped for a hug by Ms. Linda "Penguin" Arnold, I shook people's hands who I did not recognize and received congratulations from underclassmen. I walked back to my seat, my heart no longer pounding in my chest worrying whether I was going to trip or not, and Juniper and Jaime stopped me. I couldn't have been happier to see two people who I care so deeply about (besides my family) there cheering me on and congratulating me. Even if they had to be there for NHS, it meant a lot.

Jared Frieder's speech was not only beautiful but also comical. He spoke with eloquence and sincerity, reaching out to every single person in that auditorium. His speech defined almost everything that I learned about myself and life this year. Perceptions, happiness, and living the life you want. It took me 18 years, but this year I figured out the secret before Jared told us last night. We're all different. Enough said. Every perception and thought changes from person to person. However, it's how you use these two things which define who you are and what your life will become.

Despite the fact that my mom made my graduation day a living hell, I wasn't let out of my house to go celebrate, and I saw an ex-friend of mine who I thought I was over but apparently am not, I was happy last night. I didn't dwell on the negative, but rather thought about my accomplishments and how far I've gotten. I am happy. That's what life's about.

Think about it. If you go to work and you hate your job, you're going to do poorly and despise everything around you. I don't care what you believe in, but I think that we each have a job, which is why we were put here. If you're not happy with how things are going, maybe it's time to reassess the situation. Get a fresh start.

I'm happy with who I am. I'm excited to move on with my life, see where it takes me, and impact lives of those around me. I'm going to make a difference in the world. Whether big or small, I'll be content because I want to be.

Current Mood: awake

QotD: "It’s hard to wait for something that you know might never happen, but it’s even harder to give up when it’s everything you want." -Unknown

^ Story of my life. Don't ask.

Gah. These past few days have been very eh. My life is a roller coaster of emotions and lately it's been oscillating, going from the highest peak to the lowest point in a matter of seconds. My body's there, but my insides are not.

My grad party on Saturday was a ton of fun. (Almost) everyone that I cared about was there and that meant a lot to me. We sat around eating, playing apples to apples, telling lame jokes from my joke book, and discussing life. Apples to Apples was definitely the highlight of the night. Ironically, I received the "PENGUIN" card, which I used on Shelly for some word. She didn't choose my card and I was very upset. A lot of people left after that, but some stayed around and played some pool. Pol and Joe vs. Garrett and Thilan was great because Pol and Joe must've sank the 8 ball at least four times. Afterwards we jumped in the pool and sat in the hot tub talking about nothing and everything with smiles. It was a good night.

Yesterday I helped my friend Cara move into her new apartment. Since she has serious back problems, I was helping lift her items into the garage so we could pack them up. Her mom was sitting in a chair staring at us almost the whole time. I couldn't bare to look at her, although I felt like she was staring into my soul. Both of her parents were bawling, and I felt horrible even though I was only helping a friend.

Today was one of my best day's yet. Joe and I went to Rapids in the morning. The park was EMPTY, minus a few kids skipping school along with some seniors and college kids, and we rode almost every ride. On the way up to Pirates Plunge, stupidly I said "If I had to walk all the way up there and got sent down, I would be so mad." As we get to the top of the tallest water slide at the park, they tell us we have to go down due to the weather conditions. Lovely.

We left after that because we were unsure of how long the storm would last. 2 for 1 coupons in our hand, we drove to Wendy's. Joe decided along the way that we should go to the Morikami gardens, which apparently are beautiful Japanese gardens, but they were closed. Only on Mondays though. Of course.

After that disappointment because we drove around so long searching for the place, we ended up at Deerfield Beach, met some random 25-year-olds (an Asian guy who called me babe and Joe dude a lot, and some girl who was wearing a thong bathing suit and talking to everyone that passed by). I'm pretty sure they were both drunk, but it was really funny. Joe tried to teach me how to skim board, but it didn't work out too well.

Despite our luck, it was an awesome and exhausting day. We looked at the glass as half full and dealt with what came our way. It was a great way to celebrate before graduation tomorrow.

I'm so proud/excited. Congrats to us Class of '08. We've earned it. I'll see you all bright and early tomorrow morning. Woo hoo! :]

Current Mood: calm

QotD: "A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart." -Heather Pryor

Thoughts:

It begins and ends with love. That’s all there is to it.

Everything in our lives relates to love – the need, want, and requirement to be loved is started from the day we were born into this strange, new world. It carries on to our childhood and through the rest of our years, haunting our wishes, hopes, dreams, and experiences.

Some are holding on to a love that was never there – others spend it constantly searching. For those fortunate, they accept their fate and make the most of it.

I think that sometimes we get too caught up in our emotions, or suppression thereof, and refuse to acknowledge the beauty that surrounds us. We forget to look at a rose in bloom, a messy room, a puppy’s smile.

Sometimes the smallest things can make my day. Meeting strangers, holding hands, having intelligent discourse. But others, my mind is a bottomless vacuum sucking in without recognition or care.

Love is the basis of every human emotion. We thrive or die with or without it, and I don’t see that changing any time soon.

QotD: "Chase perfection like hell and you'll be sure to catch excellence on the way." -Mr. Schultz, Calculus Teacher

Cooper City High,

You've been good to me these last four years. Despite long, boring, and occasionally hard classes, thank you for the countless memories and friends I've acquired. I will not miss you, as it's time for me to move on now. My life, college, and future are calling my name.

P.S. Watch out for my underclassmen (who I guess are officially upperclassmen :]) - they're feisty ones.

SENIORS '08!

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Current Mood: content